That’s it. The President has disturbed my sleep.
I don’t say this to try to be funny. It’s a plain and sorry fact.
All my life, I was never the kind of person who had trouble
sleeping. I’ve been a light sleeper, in the sense that many things could readily
wake me up, but I nearly always returned to rest with equal ease.
Over the past several months, I’ve felt a mixture of rue and
pity for my friends when they’ve declared on social media that they’re upset or
terrified by the new President. Me, I’ve chosen the practice of steering clear
of any “news” about him. I did my best to ignore him.
There wasn’t anything he had to say that I cared to hear,
and I didn’t feel I should needlessly stir up my emotions by paying him the
slightest bit of attention … not least because he seemed to crave it so badly
and demand it as his due when he had nothing of substance to offer.
Much of what he did and said appeared self-aggrandizing and
a performance mostly for effect, not as an expression of any deeply felt
beliefs or aspirations on his part. So it was certainly not anything I needed
to worry my head about, especially since there was nothing I could do about it.
I woke up early this morning after having gone to bed later
than usual last night. I did everything I could to go back to sleep; even
plugged in my iPod and programmed soothing progressive jazz by Oregon, but it
was no go.
The proximate causes of my restlessness, I suppose, were a
rebuke I posted to a slight acquaintance from high school who probably voted
for the new President (although like many of his supporters, he’s not appeared
to be all that proud of the fact but unaccountably cagey; he hasn’t been eager
to come right out and say so) and had just posted an insulting witticism about
Senator Elizabeth Warren, so I typed a stinging riposte just before shutting
down my laptop and going to bed . . .
And the death of a friend.